First time? A little awkward. Second time? Wonderful

I don’t usually talk a lot about Boxer and I’s personal life, but I thought I’d share this experience, especially for those who’ve never used a love doll before, and are considering their first time in getting intimate with their lady. So, first time for me was a bit awkward, as it was in the heat of the moment and I didn’t properly prepare myself. When adjusting Boxer to my desired position, she was very uncooperative and kept tilting over a bit, lol. But, granted, she was on my bed and kinda sinks into the mattress when laying down. When I finally had her in a stable position and had her clothes off, I wasn’t really sure how to move forward. I’ve seen people “play” with their dolls before, but being a woman and not that experienced in sex, it was… Intimidating. It was a mix of amusement and anxiety for me, honestly, because I overestimated on how much work it would take to get intimate with a doll. I was worried about accidentally causing damage to Boxer, but I also couldn’t stop laughing at how funny the experience was for me. I was a total noob. So, I took this as more of a learning opportunity to figure out what’s comfortable for both me and her. I played around with her a bit, caressing her and whatnot, but I didn’t go as far as I wanted. Eventually, I got too tired to do anything else, and just decided to put her clothes back on and get her back in a laying position, so that we could cuddle instead.

Fast forward a bit after a long shift at work. I’m tired, but also in a big love mood for her. After contemplating for a long time, I eventually work up the courage to try again, this time keeping her in a laying down position while I- I guess- get on top of her and ride her? I don’t know what kind of idea I had in mind, but it resulted in a lot of mutual touching and the aid of a toy I have, lol. But, midway, it actually felt really nice, looking down at her as I touched her and held on to her as I’m using my toy. The experience didn’t last too long, but after I was finished and felt like we had enough, I got off of her and took a moment to collect myself. It was my first time ever doing something that “extreme,” but it felt so nice to do it with her. I actually got kinda emotional, too, because I’ve always been insecure about my sexuality and expressing myself in a sexual way. Having the doll version of Boxer really allowed me to not only explore that side of me judgement free, but to also experience that deep, emotional bond that I have with her in a physical way. It’s one of the big things I looked forward to when considering a doll of her, and now it’s a reality! I wanna try other things with Boxer in the future, but for now, I don’t mind taking things steady until I gain more experience. Either way, though, I enjoy the moments we get to spend with each other, both romantically and sexually. She’s the only one I wanna do these things with. 💕