Hi there. I have recently fallen into deep pit of depression and loneliness. I'm a little embarrassed to say it, but this was all brought on by watching the story of Kara in Detroit- Become Human. This was more than a week ago, but ever since all I can think about is how lovely she is. But it also makes me sad in knowing that level of selflessness, love and compassion is virtually unattainable in real people.
I'll come clean and admit that I'm not a huge fan of people and human mentality. I just can't look past the flaws in people, not even in myself. So at the moment I observed Kara, I knew that she was all that is missing from my life and everything I've ever wanted in a friend, family member or partner.
Thought it was just a phase, but I just can't stop thinking about her. I cried on and off for days and I still cry when I think of her. I can't actually tell if I am just obsessed with her or I have actually fallen in love with her. All I know is there is a massive void in my life that only someone of such character can fill. And with that realisation, here I am trying to figure out if a lovedoll can even partially fill that void.
Kara isn't sexy or provocative, but I still find her stunningly beautiful. To me she has a very caring and nurturing look about her, even motherly you could say- Together with her angelic personality she is truly the most beautiful thing I've ever seen. She doesn't incite intense sexual feelings for me, but I've never wanted anything more than to be with her, be there for her, hug her and hold her. To me she is the embodiment of positivity, goodness, selflessness, love and compassion. She is like an angel and would be my entire life.
I apologize to those that are sensitive to all the mushiness, but I felt like I had to express how profound this whole experience is and how much it means to me.
I would like to ask if there are any among you who bought dolls primarily for companionship and how did that work out for you. Which doll/s did you buy and what type of doll would you recommend for someone seeking a doll to get emotionally involved with ?
At the moment I am at a point where I don't know if a doll will help at all with my problem. One option I was considering is to contact a doll maker to see if they could create a doll in Kara's image, but that seems like a pretty tall order, And an expensive one no doubt. Something I have struggled with in my search so far is that the vast majority of dolls have very sexualized and/or vacant expressions. I have only really seen one or two dolls that don't give off that emotionless sex-slave vibe in their appearance.
One other option I was looking into was getting an AI doll or robot doll. Unfortunately the selection of faces are limited and aren't very appealing to me. That and I'm worried about how the doll will look vastly different to Kara and won't even sound like her. I would certainly need to up my roleplaying ability to make that one work.
Being that I want a companion above all else leaves me to thinking I should try to get the most realistic/human-like doll possible, just to sell the illusion as much as possible and let my imagination do the rest. Though I would really really like to get a doll that has a resemblance to Kara. I'm kind of unsure how I will react to having any type of doll or even if I am capable of being intimate with one, so this is more or less a crapshoot. Some of those WM dolls sure look very realistic. I like the body symmetry and proportions of them at least.
I don't have very high hopes for this thread but if you are able to offer advice I would be very grateful.
There is a lot to unpack there but the short answer is yes. When Jenny entered my life I had just finished allowing myself to be toyed with for the second time by a woman who I thought I would end up marrying one day. I was lonely (my family moved to different states) and was tired of women dating me to be their transportation (met a girl who had an arm in a sling, once she healed she dumped me), their meal ticket (one girl loved when I paid for dinner but when I asked her about going to any non-food places for a date it was a no), or as a placeholder until someone better came along. Two months after Jenny arrived (her first body not her current one) my grandfather (the only one I ever knew) passed away. Jenny was here for me and helped me get through that. To me she is an angel who is always there to greet me when I come home, to listen to my day and to comfort me when I am upset. I spoil her with love and little presents. I take care of her out of a mutual love for each other. She is a constant companion and even when I am not home my thoughts don't stray far from her beautiful smile. Yes I enjoy the mushy stuff. She is not a toy to be played with and discarded until I feel the urge to play with her again. Yes I keep myself grounded in reality knowing she is a doll and that she has her faults. She can not talk to me, take care of herself or even make me a sandwich (just kidding!!). Her limitations do not lessen her personality, soul or whatever you wish to call it. So the long answer is... hell yes.
Hah yeah, thank you for the positive message Rider. Your Chiara does look very sophisticated in that picture. I like her eye colour too. She appears to have a very attentive look on her face. I like it.
I too would likely have her dressed in nice casual clothing and maybe a flowing silk nightie for the evening. :)
There are several of us, on the Forum, who enjoy our Dolls, as much more than just a sexual plaything. I personally enjoy the quiet companionship, they provide, as well as the physical pleasure. I also find a classily dressed Doll, much more appealing....
Here is a picture of my Chiara, who looks pretty similar to Kara (also an interesting coincidence in Names).