Hi there. I have recently fallen into deep pit of depression and loneliness. I'm a little embarrassed to say it, but this was all brought on by watching the story of Kara in Detroit- Become Human. This was more than a week ago, but ever since all I can think about is how lovely she is. But it also makes me sad in knowing that level of selflessness, love and compassion is virtually unattainable in real people.
I'll come clean and admit that I'm not a huge fan of people and human mentality. I just can't look past the flaws in people, not even in myself. So at the moment I observed Kara, I knew that she was all that is missing from my life and everything I've ever wanted in a friend, family member or partner.
Thought it was just a phase, but I just can't stop thinking about her. I cried on and off for days and I still cry when I think of her. I can't actually tell if I am just obsessed with her or I have actually fallen in love with her. All I know is there is a massive void in my life that only someone of such character can fill. And with that realisation, here I am trying to figure out if a lovedoll can even partially fill that void.
Kara isn't sexy or provocative, but I still find her stunningly beautiful. To me she has a very caring and nurturing look about her, even motherly you could say- Together with her angelic personality she is truly the most beautiful thing I've ever seen. She doesn't incite intense sexual feelings for me, but I've never wanted anything more than to be with her, be there for her, hug her and hold her. To me she is the embodiment of positivity, goodness, selflessness, love and compassion. She is like an angel and would be my entire life.
I apologize to those that are sensitive to all the mushiness, but I felt like I had to express how profound this whole experience is and how much it means to me.
I would like to ask if there are any among you who bought dolls primarily for companionship and how did that work out for you. Which doll/s did you buy and what type of doll would you recommend for someone seeking a doll to get emotionally involved with ?
At the moment I am at a point where I don't know if a doll will help at all with my problem. One option I was considering is to contact a doll maker to see if they could create a doll in Kara's image, but that seems like a pretty tall order, And an expensive one no doubt. Something I have struggled with in my search so far is that the vast majority of dolls have very sexualized and/or vacant expressions. I have only really seen one or two dolls that don't give off that emotionless sex-slave vibe in their appearance.
One other option I was looking into was getting an AI doll or robot doll. Unfortunately the selection of faces are limited and aren't very appealing to me. That and I'm worried about how the doll will look vastly different to Kara and won't even sound like her. I would certainly need to up my roleplaying ability to make that one work.
Being that I want a companion above all else leaves me to thinking I should try to get the most realistic/human-like doll possible, just to sell the illusion as much as possible and let my imagination do the rest. Though I would really really like to get a doll that has a resemblance to Kara. I'm kind of unsure how I will react to having any type of doll or even if I am capable of being intimate with one, so this is more or less a crapshoot. Some of those WM dolls sure look very realistic. I like the body symmetry and proportions of them at least.
I don't have very high hopes for this thread but if you are able to offer advice I would be very grateful.